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C.S. Lewis said, "In speaking of this desire ... I feel a certain shyness. I am almost committing an indecency. I am trying to rip open the inconsolable secret in each one of you ... the secret which hurts so much that you take revenge on it by calling it names like nostalgia and romanticism and adolescence, the secret also which pierces with such sweetness that, when, in every intimate conversation, the mention of it becomes imminent, we grow awkward and affect to laugh at ourselves, the secret we cannot hide and cannot tell."

This quote is from a sermon Lewis preached in 1941 titled  "The Weight of Glory.  In my journey today the quote represents the unbelievable, undeniable, unrelenting, unwavering love that I experience in God's faithfullness to me.  I don't know how to speak of this love accurately so I sound like an adolescent when I try.  I cannot conjour up these feelings whenever I want to ___ they are just present on days like today and I had no idea to expect them.  When my heart is this full I do remember the last time I felt this way and I am curious about how long it has been and what has occurred in my life since.  

Joe knows something is up today.  He can see it in my eyes and sense it in my laugh.  It is the secret we cannot hide, this feeling of being deeply loved in some mystical way.  And yet, when asked about it we cannot tell because all language is woefully insufficient.  

I suppose this is one reason why I need Christian community.  It is where I meet people who share the secret and who know not to ask the questions that cannot be answered.